No Reply: Frustrations of Dating in the Modern Age

Well, it’s been three days since my date and still no reply. My calls have gone unreturned, and I think that I’m out at this point. I’m devastated.

I feel like I have so much to give: I’m caring, intelligent, humorous, open-minded, I have a lot of love to give, and I feel like nobody will give me a chance. None of my dates recently have developed into a second, despite how great they’ve been, and the only common factor has been me. So I can’t help but wonder what it is about me that’s turning all of these great women off?

Let’s see here: One of them decided to go AWOL and flaked on me. Two decided that they would rather be “just friends.” Two others have cancelled at the last minute so I didn’t even make it to the first date. And finally, now this woman, the one I liked the most, has apparently cut off contact with me. What’s a guy to do? Is dating this hard for everybody?

Well, I’ve called her twice and gotten no answer, leaving messages each time. I get one more call before I become a stalker, and I’m going to wait a couple days to make it. Honestly, I’m trying really hard not to keep hope alive right now because I have a feeling I’ll just be disappointed. After all, she did immediately log back into the dating site after our date to make some edits, and she hasn’t so much as glanced at me. Still, I can’t help but hope that she’ll finally call me back. I feel so pathetic for that.

I’m already trying to move on, though, putting myself back on the prowl, so to speak, but I don’t know if anything will end up different. I still haven’t figured out what it is that’s turning everyone off, but then again maybe I just haven’t met the right people. Maybe there’s a reason why these women are single and looking for love online. Maybe the next one I meet will be open enough to see me as the awesome person I am.

I think part of my trouble has also been my bipolar issues. I visited the doc today and he increased my Depakote. Just what I needed: More shaking and weight gain. If it does the trick, though, I’ll have no complaints, and I’m going to try extra hard to keep the weight down this time. Maybe in another week or two I will have lost enough pounds to really attract a hottie.

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